Cried

Today, I cried, explosively, thoroughly.

So many things happened in these days.

Made me full so lost.

I couldnt stop to doubt myself.

And disappointed to myself.

Am I expected too much?

Am I overestimating myself too much ?

Am I ?

I have never felt so bad. Actually I didnt have mood to celebrate my birthday. But I knew I still need to , because people arounds me want to see me happy and I want to make them happy as well. I dont want to talk about that with you right now, I know you are busy as well. I dont want to put my bad mood on you anymore. You need to concentrate on your assignment and this is what I want to see as well.But...I think, I NEED Uuuuuu

What is the world behind my wall?

Banana's Day 3

Breakfast: One banana

Lunch: One cup of Mocha

Dinner: About 1/3 fired noodle + One Plum + One cup of Hot Chocolate

Can U eat them?

OMG～I dont want to know how long it takes to make any one of them!

Besides how they tastes like,by just looking at them, I am full already :)

Banana's Day 2

 Morning Weight: 50.2 kg

Breakfast: One banana + Up&go

Lunch: One banana + Beans + Cup of Milo + NCIS

Dinner: Watermelon + Orange juice&Lemonade

Banana's Day 1

Morning Weight: 50.4 kg

Breakfast: Sultana Bran + Ovaltine&Milk + 'Vampire Diaries" E19 + Coffee

Lunch: One banana + Beans + 10 Pistachio

Dinner: One cup of Milo + one banana + Grapes+"Sexy and the City"

Discovery Channel--Chatswood

24th April 2010

My first little trip in Chatswood, Sydney.

We almost prefectly done our jobs--shopping for winter clothes. The reason I used 'almost' here, is because there was a dark purple shirt which both of us like it a lot. It looks so good. But, not for the price. So we have to give up since we need rational consumption. However, we can have the shrit stay on my blog! huhu~

Tarocash Battalion Stripe Purple

Now please have a look at my special personally Discovery Channel~!

Today, our target is--------Chatswood

First Discovery---San Churro

From the logo of the shop, you may notice that it looks like a man's face.And it is. There was a man named ' San Churro' before. Because he was the first person brought the churro to the world.

In 1528 Hernan Cortes brought the decadent Aztec tradition of chocolate to Spain. So precious was this gift that only the monks were allowed to manufacture chocolate strictly for the Spanish aristocracy. The head monk, San Churro, witnessed many miracles of chocolate including the healing of the Queen of Spain and made it his life's work to spread the 'secret' of chocolate across Europe.

And so began the legend of San Churro...

Chocolate & Churros
This classic Spanish treat is San Churro’s specialty.
Churros (Spanish doughnuts) are made fresh to order & served with a pot of melted couverture chocolate.
Mmmmmm......

You can enjoy it with different
sources if you want. We chosed dark chocolate and carmel.

The coffee in white is "Chai Latte" ,
and another one is "Spanish Latte'.





I found a recipe of how to make chocolate brownies which is also very welcomed in San Churro, but it looks so....XXX. I wondering when I will have the mood to try it. Haha~

San Churro’s Miracle Chocolate Brownies

• ¾ cup plain flour
• ¼ teaspoon salt
• 1 tablespoon cocoa powder
• 115g unsalted butter
• ¾ teaspoon instant coffee
• 280g San Churro dark chocolate (60/40 or Guinea depending on your taste)
• ¾ cup caster sugar
• ¼ cup light brown sugar
• 3 large eggs
• 1 teaspoon vanilla extract

Preheat the oven to 180ºC. Butter an 8 inch square baking pan.

Sift the flour, salt and cocoa powder together and set aside.

In a medium-large heavy saucepan, combine the butter, coffee and stir over low heat until the butter is melted. Add 150g of the chocolate, stirring constantly until the mixture appears completely smooth, approximately 2 minutes.

Take the chocolate mixture off the heat and add the sugars, mixing until combined. Add the eggs and vanilla and continue stirring until they are evenly incorporated and the mixture does not appear grainy.

Sprinkle the sifted flour over the mixture and stir just until blended. Stir in the remaining chocolate chips (130g).

Pour the batter into the greased pan and smooth the top. Bake brownies for 28-30 minutes or until a toothpick inserted into the centre comes out with a few moist crumbs. Do not overbake. Cool completely on a wire rack.

NOTE:
If you are using a dark-coloured baking pan, reduce the oven temperature by 5ºC

Oh, just a little notice. The price in San Churro is a bit expensive, be careful of your pocket. However, that explains why the Company of San Churro recently ranked 22 in Australia’s 100 fastest growing companies (BRW Fast Starter’s List).

Second Discovery--ARIKADO Sushi Train

It's a interesting Sushi train, not because of the sushi in that shop but the name of the shop. It means "Thanks" in Japanese. The price is amazing! Each dish is only $2.50. Can you believe it ? And there are teasting~

Trust me! Worth to go at anytime~and many times!

*I should take a photo~~ahhh*

Oh, this is the gift from Chatswood. A handsome man smiling to me, with two big smiling flowers on his shoulders.

Check it out~How Happy They Are!

Caf-Pow-I-Need-U

Caf-Powwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
Yes, it's you, where all the magic come from. And, I really really need you now, because I am suffering by the assignment.

Well, I actually have no idea of how they(NCIS) made you. To me,you are kind of slushy sort of substance and red-orange in color. That's all. Oh, and Abby cant live without you. Because you helped her become Gibbs favourite.

Are you a real drink? I found some answers from internet said that you are acutally made by Diet Pepsi Max for the sugar free variety and Jolt Cola for the non-diet variety. It's a bit hard for me to get the picture of how that works, but I guess you should be existed...in somewhere.

I saw some people said they got you from ebay, and I tried as well. However, there were only come out with Caf-Pow Mug or Caf-pow Logo T-shirt :(

Another thing that I have to mention is...I guess Miss Abby is becoming my favourite actor in NCIS :) Here she is~

Abby & Caf-Powwwwwww

Busy Month

April 2010
must be the busiest month ever.
I have 4 assignments and 1 mid-exam and MY BIRTHDAY.

Honestly, I have no idea how I gonna celebrate my 22nd BD.
Because I have an very important assignment due on 30th April, just one day after my BD. Guess I shouldnt drink too much on my BD.

I had suffered japanese mid-exam yesterday.
I did not do it well. Actually, it's bad.
But it's ok...it's passed already.
There's nothing would change if I keep complain about the paper.
So I would say,let's consider the mid-exam as an alarm bell that reminds me that I should make more effort on japanese,rather then lie down on the sofa and watch the NCIS.

Another thing is, I have to say 'thanks' to Mr Evan again for helping me on the PE assginment. You are a good "killer"~I am expecting the result for our work now.

Need to back to study....Wish me luck for the last assginment in April!!!
Yes! Last one!

C'est la vie

Sometimes you had lost

Lost confidence,lost trust,lost yourself

No one can release you but yourself

Sometimes you made mistakes

Mistakes to others and mistakes to yourself

But maybe not all of them could be forgiven

Sometimes you choose to avoid

Not only the problem and the cruel truth

But you got to know they would never disappear untill you face them

Sometimes you like digging

Burying the past, the memories, and some parts of yourself

Sometimes you keep complaining the life

You dont really know what's wrong with it but just want to vent

There's no thing wrong with it

It's just you are trying to be yourself

No matter when we will become part of the memory of others

We still have the right to draw the picture of our dreams

Simply because

C'est la vie

Hold on tight!

Those dreams of life you will never know when and where you"ll find them

And you are gonna take your time

gonna follow your own lead

Simply because

C'est la vie

C'est la vie

Sick Again

As the tilte...Yes, the superwoman Miss Cc lost her power because she's sick again! Twice within one month~so bad! What worse is this time she even has some naughty clod sore on her lips! This is so annoying~ She cant eat appropriate and kiss gently.

So, is there any well-meaning people can do a magic or use a incantation to make me never get sick again? Well, at least, not so much~Please！

Fly Me To The Moon

Fly me to the moon
Let me play among the stars
Let me see what spring is like
On Jupiter and Mars
In other words, hold my hand
In other words, darling, kiss me
Fill my heart with song
And let me sing for ever more
You are all I long for
All I worship and adore
In other words, please be true
In other words, I love you

Fly me to the moon
Let me play among the stars
Let me see what spring is like
On Jupiter and Mars
In other words, hold my hand
In other words, darling, kiss me

Fill my heart with song
Let me sing for ever more
You are all I long for
All I worship and adore
In other words, please be true
In other words, in other words
In other words, in other words
In other words
I love ... you

 

Worth Remembering

4. 11

 

The Bed

Love can not do without a bed.

From the desire to share the same bed and the same pillow to share the same bed but dream different dreams. Joys and sorrows, separations and reunions, all took place in the bed.

Men like bring the woman to the bed with them, women in the bed like to ask the question like :

"do you love me?"

"You love me so we do or you just want to have sex?"

"I looks better when I wear the clothes or take them off ?"

"Are you really serious about me？"

In bed with thousands and thousands of words, while sometimes cannot say a word, always be the woman.

Once men get out of the bed first, women inevitably lost, especially when he wore clothes back, ready to return to his wife around. Women can't help doubting，her vaule, can not be separated from the bed, and only existed on that joyous moment. 

Men's promise to leave the bed, lost its significance.

A woman can forgive his husband bring his lover back home, but is determined to change the mattress. Because that bed is the testimony of her and her husband's love, or was to be, and was her respect.

The new hostess moved into a man's home, in any case, he needed to change his bed. She will not sleep in the bed where he used to have sex with other women. She think it is a man of respect for her.

Women's love and hate are never separated from the bed.

In 'Sex and The City ", Kerry said:" Women and the bed, like a pair of symbiotic lovers, the man is changeable, but the bed is always the same from first to last."

Formerly, she was played the pillow war with him. Now, she hit him with a pillow and gritting her teeth. Man left, she flew to the bed in tears.

Tears of a woman in the bed, more than in any one place.

Man lies in bed, more than in any one place as well.

Soliloquy

I can take it leisurely to accept the love from passion to become a glassy calm

as long as we still in love with each other.  

A calm and peaceful life 

is the moment for us begin to understand how to treasure each other. 

Needless to say too much commitment

sometimes

a glance or a small gesture is sufficient. 

Only go through a long long love 

and reject all different kinds of temptation

then people could have such a treasure eventually. 

Sweetheart

dreams are never stop overflow

but

the person always stand beside you is me.

Linda Hunt

Linda Hunt, this little woman has successfully got an enormous admiration from me.

Her deep and husky vocie just make people feel more strength and dignity.

While actually I found she is only 4' 9" (1.45 m). This is tiny.

She comes from the CBS fall show NCIS: Los Angeles as the role of an operations manager and supervisor. But for me, she is more like a mix of philosopher and psychologist.

Her word spoken, every move, as if she could see through other people's inner world. She knows what is needed the most when people are fragile, and what should be gaven to when people are afraid and want to escape.

I dont know should I say the script is too amazing，or is Linda Hunt who interpreted the role so successful, you'll never got bored on NCIS L.A. I bet, sooner or later, you'll fall in love with 'Hetty' like me~

 

Shoulder & Embrace

I was very good at controlling my emotion, whatever it was.

I got so many ways to achieve that.

Either look up the sky, or find a place nobody know and crying by myself.

It does not mean that I dont like to share things with others, actually, I prefer to share happiesness with others more then sadness. Since my childhood, I was be told that I need to be a big girl, a tough girl. And I was be trained to be that as well. I have to face those problems by myself and find the way to slove them. There should not have the word 'escape‘ in my dictionary. Even when I got the notice of critically ill from the hospital in my 13 years of age, I still knew how to keep a smile on my face to everyone who cares about me. It was hard...but also I seems get used to be living in that way.

However, I dont know when it starts, I begin to looking for an shoulder that can afford the weight of my tears, and an embrace which can replace the quiet places where I used to go and cry. Maybe because I am getting tired, maybe because that too much emtion has been suppressed too long. I dont know. I became particularly vulnerable to trust others. But as the outcome of deception and betrayal，then I stopped. Yes, I am afraid. I even begin to thinking that maybe I am that kind of person better to be alone and have to be alone. These men were just too evil to me.

While today, when I almost lost my control of the emotion, I got a shoulder and a hug. I dont know how to describe that feeling, I do want to cry out loud, but I didnt. Maybe I havent get used to have a shoulder and a hug.


I was planning to have some Vodaka tonight, but I changed my mind. Instead, I wrote a lot on my blog and watched cartoons. I guess, it's because of your. MY MR. Charming. I have to say thanks again, and you have to take it. Cheers~

Oh, and I had a big dinner tonight, cooked a lot. I'd like to share some with you. Hope you and your friends had a nice dinner as well.

Hot spicy fish and bacon&eggplant

7th April

Despite the morning rain, but the relatively sunny throughout the afternoon.

Norita-a place that I still can not work out the meaning of that name, but really a good place to go. Not only for the nice ice-cream they have, and the inflatable hammer.Today, I played a new game that I ever know before. I like little cute monkeys, but if I want to win, I can not have too many of them. My record was not too bad, I got 7 monkeys at the end, which meant I have to be hit 7 times by the inflatable hammer. Fortunately, I be serviced very carefully and softly. Oh, and they have some awesome biscuits, here, let me show you.

If you only could have one of two, which one would be your choice?

Powerhouse Museum-if you want to look something special and different,dont miss it. You will find lots of fun from there, whatever you like. You can find an extraodinary array of treasures across decorative arts and design, science, technology,space, transport and Australian history. It's amazing~that all I have to say about it.

How enjoyed~!

Hello~Subway

People who get surprised and laughed about that I havent tried Subway since I come to Aus, now is the time to the end  this show. Because~I just have my first Subway with a charming guy on a sunny afternoon. Here is it~

                                     Say 'Hello' to my first Subway

Thanks to Mr Charming who helped me to make a good choice for my first Subway

Bread: Italian herb and cheese
Main topping: Pizza (that includes a sauce)
Cheese: Tasty cheese
Vegetables: Lettuce, tomato, onion
No salt, pepper or extra sauce

Can We ?

Sometimes life just can not be the way we wanted.

Some things are always very hard to get but it is easy to lose.

I dont know what else I can do, and what else should I say to you.

But

What I do know is the only way to quite it, is to get it out.

Whatever you are really thinking about, to me, to our friendship, just get it out.

Not like the way you are acting now. That's just make me feeling more upset.

I want to smile~smiling without something stick on my face~smiling together with you again.

So, can we just end this terrible situation and back to friends?

Studying T

Just a quick notes that I am studying in a secret computer room in the engeneering building with Mr. Charming now, and this is the FIRST time. And he looks so different while doing the works. I really want to take a picture now if I can :P

A Little Vent

I cut my hair again....I dont know why. When I acutally want to go back home to sleep, I went to the saloon instead. Maybe I just want to have a bit changes on me, since some things has changed. But I know, even I changed the hair, did not mean I could change what had happened and changed. This is just me a little way to vent.

2

It was 2nd of April.

There were 2 people on the street.

The number for the queue was 22.

The seat number for the movie was T-22.

The basketball shooting machine record was 25:52.

Chating 2 hours in an amazing loft with 2 cups of orange vodaka.

Rainning was not so bad coz there were 2 people under one umbrella.

Grab 2 of 10 pack McDonald's chicken nuggets.

AND

It was a 2 wonderful day 2 us~

No Invasion

This is NEW HOME for my blog.

For some reason, I have to change the address for the blog.

I need to be cared, but, I need my own space as well.

Somewhere inside my heart, may not want to be exposed to the sun.

Some trivia about me, may not want to be widely spread.

Some parts of me, may not be easily understood by others.

So somehow, I can not trust everyone.

This little space here, is for those 'somewhere', 'some trivia', and 'some parts'.

Please do not force invasion !

Dracula-1993

Ok, I have to say the vampire things  are making me crazy....sleep so late now!

Please dont give me the dark circle or any naughty acne, please!!

Imaging lie down on the bed, close all the lights, and now in front of you is movie made in 1993 with only white and black! And it's about vampire! How awesome~The vampire is getting closer and closer to you with two of his shine and shrip vampire teeth. He is wearing a long black clock, smiling to you in a very strange and evil sense. The blood is keeping flow down from his sharp teeth. You seems like his next meal. Are you afriad ?

But the problem for me is I can not understand, at the beginning of the movie,what those people talking about at all! What's that language ? Er...

The part that when the Dracula see the blood come from the man's finger, the changing of his facial expression was so attractive!

ABC--C

A & B & C

When you have to choose one from three, what is your choice ?

I dont care about your choice is not C, what I care about is would you make the choice？

If the innocence of children is the most realistic, then when me make the promise by hook the little finger, I believe, it is the most sincere.

With the grass - With the sun - With the finger - With the trust

Dracula

I have to say sorry to you--Mr Dracula, how can I forget you!
Actually, I've watched the cartoon of you when I was 8.

 You used the identity of a vampire duck told the story of yours to me, and，at that time, I was deeply attracted to you already. Still remember that I kept singing the song of the cartoon. Here's the beginning part of the cartoon with the song.
http://www.tudou.com/programs/view/ulAGgWbJNNg/

Now I found more about you. The book and moives, surprise me, when I found so many moives about you. But I'll intro all of them one by one in the following days.


Today...the cartoon is just a start.